Well, I think I'm coming out of the funk I was in a few weeks back. I was wanting so badly to be done the books I was working on, and was feeling very stressed about having too much on my plate and having no time for anything else. When I finished the book, the burden was lifted and within a few days I was back to myself. I'm not a negative person by nature, but for a while there I was wondering what was wrong with me.
It's amazing what a little bit of free time can do for a person. I've taken a few completely selfish days to loll about and think about what should come next for our family. I'm feeling very inspired these days to do something for myself. I don't want to go back to Canada and work at a lousy job. I want to do something that is my own idea and that I enjoy doing. Or at least, I'd like to try to make that work. I've been inspired by some friends of mine who are chasing after their dreams, and I've been thinking, why not me, too? Of course, I do not have much financial freedom and therefore can't invest a lot of money into a business, but I can start small. I have been talking with my mom and sister about a potential opportunity in our community in Canada, which, if it is feasible, would be a huge, but amazing project to work on. I'm waiting to get more information on this opportunity, and if it sounds at all doable, I may be heading back to North America sooner than planned to snatch it up.
I am also thinking about a smaller scale idea that I could start soonish. I may head to Dongdaemun for supplies tomorrow or Friday. Probably not tomorrow, as Grace just puked all over her crib and it looks like we should stay close to home.
But yes, the quest continues. I love this feeling of hopefulness and inspiration. On top of all this, I received a phone call last night from my good friend in South Carolina, who I studied Korean with at Ewha Women's University. It's always great to get an unexpected phone call from a good friend!
Then today, I received a rather heavy parcel in the mail from my friend Becky (the Constant Crafter), who I haven't even met in real life. It was a fantastic parcel of CRAFT BOOKS. A knitting book, a polymer clay book that she wrote herself, and four quilting books! She must have been paying attention to my facebook status updates and blog posts about me wanting a sewing machine so that I could take up machine quilting. So, when I decide to finally start, I have some great books already on the shelf! Becky herself is an inspiration since she has published nine craft books of her own. I was so touched to receive this package. When it came to the door, I was getting ready for a day of teaching and feeling the dread of going into work. It certainly brightened up my day.So, I'm back on track and thinking about bigger and better things for the future. Support from my friends and family has been much appreciated. Hopefully there will be posts soon with more details about all my plans.