Sleep.

I wish I could get more. But these days, I can't blame it on Grace, even if she is giving me a bit of a fight before bed. What happens is, I go to bed too late because I'm up writing the stupid coursebook and doing the stupid applications. Being on the computer for hours has me wired. I try to wind down for bed, but I just can't. I end up tossing and turning for hours, thinking about the silliest little details, like, I must email so-and-so to see if they have an address for that place, or I should check out baggage allowances for such-and-such airline. Stuff that doesn't matter right now, but it still keeps me awake. Sejin has been really great, and has been getting up with Grace in the morning and letting me sleep because he knows I'm not getting much during the night. This move is huge, and it's getting to me.

Tomorrow morning I'm calling the woman who owns the business I am interested in. My sister has been lovely and has been talking to her on my behalf. But it's time I introduced myself to really get the ball rolling. Are you curious yet? Well, I'm not going to give up many details because it may not work out anyway. This business would be great for me, but there's so much involved in taking it over, and this woman is a little on the eccentric side. She kindly wrote out all the financial details of the business in handwriting on a scrap piece of paper and gave it to my sister. Yes...no spreadsheets. She doesn't even do email. The up side is that she's been in business 35 years, so she must be doing something right.

In the event that this does not work out, I've decided that I'm going to go to Canada anyway. It's just time. I think I can make something else work. I'm feeling much more optimistic that I was in the spring.