Next week I will start weaning Grace. It has become clear to me that I will not get any sleep if I continue to allow her to nurse on demand, so it must come to an end. I feel bad for her, but I don't think many people have felt tiredness like this. She's getting me up about 5-8 times per night. It's just getting worse and worse. If I try to soothe her in another way, she has a major freakout. She is very demanding. I'm through with analyzing it and am ready to stop. It's going to be stressful for both of us, but I think it will be worth it in the end. Let's hope 2010 is the year of much deserved sleep. I hope I can look back on 2009, laugh, and think, how did I get by so long on 3 hours a night?
In other news, Grace did the sign for "sleep" today, totally unexpectedly. A baby on TV was sleeping, and she looked at me and did the sign. It was cute. Somehow I don't think she'll ever use that sign to tell me she wants to go to sleep.